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I'M LOSING THE CHILD IN ME

 Hold on, I know what you're thinking, I'm speaking figuratively. And I'm a healthy black male in my mid 20s and male don't bare children. What I mean is that I'm losing that carefree spirit, that i-don't-care spirit that is found in children, that strong belief that everything will go your way. Or let's just say yes I'm in my early stage of transitioning from a boy to a man. How do I know this, that's because we are all dealing with reality. Things don't change unless we make the change, nothing happens unless we make it happen. I once saw in a post that women, children are loved for just existing but for a boy transitioned into a man has to always prove himself worthy of anything even love from his parents. For him is either success or no need for existance. But I love being older now, I remember when I was much younger I couldn't wait to grow up so I could have control of my life and people will stop telling me what to do and I'm more handsome with my facial hair. Gosh! I love my facial hair.
   So you can't control peoples emotion but you can control yours, I'm talking to the male in their early transitioning from boys to men. If you ask me how I live in a society that neglects the emotions of men, I have very few but solid friends that we can talk about every and anything, friends that I can be vulnerable with : I fall apart and put myself back together without being judged or spited. I Read books (I've talked about reading books and how I cultivated a reading habit in the previous blog), listen to conscious music e.g raggae music, it's very educative and very spot on with the social issues going on around us. Meditate, time alone is very essential to me, that's when I have time to make reflections on issues of life and also recharge my energy. All these didn't happen by chance, it takes consciousness to know what works for you and what brings you peace of mind. I'm not perfect like I've said before, there are days I feel like I'm the most irresponsible person on Earth but life goes on, everyone breaks down but you must keep moving.


           SLOW LEARNER STUDY GROUP
                                Est. 1995

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